if i heartbreak

i pretty stressed this night. everything seems fulfilling my head. i only thought about his words, but everything happened today was related by him. and i hate think about him!!
this is what i want to said with him last (but i never told him):
i do hope nothing when i heart somebody. i am happy (try to be happy) when somebody i love is happy. even isn't because of me he/she happy. even when he/she don't with me when he/she was happy.
i do really honest want you to be happy with her. is it because i love you?? even i am not sure..
and when you ask me for hundred, i still don't know. the fact is, there is something strange in my chest. something want to blow up when i remember your words.. although i already accepted what you want. 
i am crazy in love. but this is not crazy love.