Now What? / Then What?

People say, “one step closer,”

I would asked, “to what?”

I proudly announced that I officially graduated. YEAY! But then, I sadly tell you that it’s kind of mirage or (fatamorgana for oasis in the dessert). The next day after the ceremony, people tend to ask, what am I doing then? What kind of job I expected? Where will I live? Do I apply in this company? What about that company? And the greatest explosion comes from the question “are you planning to get married?”

Peeps, believe me. I know you wish the best for me, and what I want is the same as you are. I want to get a job as soon as possible, any kind as long as it halal and I can meet their requirements. For notes, if it is possible, seven to eight digit in my paycheck. I want to live somewhere I could called it home, somewhere I can be myself. Yes, of course I’m trying to sell myself from one to another company. And BAM! You all asked about my private life. I’m pretty sure, no one in this world would be happy live their life alone. Being together with someone we deeply connected both physically and mentally (or we always name it jodoh, the other half, soul mate, etc) is happiness and even some people called it home. That is exactly what I want to. One thing you forget is the fact that what we want is not always what Allah as The One and Only who makes this life possible, planned.

After all, what we search and try to reach in this world, in this dunya? I have better question, “are we already grateful with what we got?, and are we ever (for once) happy live our life?”

Anyway, it’s actually about good news that I already finished my study. Thank you for the support, for the dua, and for anything that make it happened. I’m sorry for still trying to be a good person, the successful one, or whatever you named it.