#quote

“I said never apologize for how you feel. 

No one can control how they feel. 

The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. 

The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. 

Feelings just are.”

— Iain S. Thomas, Intentional Dissonance

#RandomMind

Today I play Maroon 5's Nothing Lasts Forever and suddenly I think it over and over again. Nothing lasts forever. It is kind a old words because everybody know it and can say it easily to reassure someone else, but do we really understand that kind of feeling? Even though million time I say it and try understand its meaning, still for me it is hardly executed, yet sometimes I can't. Losing something whether it's material or think or even a feeling are really disappointing. Sometimes we say to our self  that we can earn it again, right? It is really true, but still we regret and some questions popped out 'why it happen to me?', 'did I do wrong?', or 'does she or he hate me?'. Let see positively, nothing last forever and if it has to be gone, it has own reason and for our goodness. We have to try harder to earn and keep it in another chance. Have you ever asked your self, what we really looking for in this world, in our job, in a person, in a relationship.. I have an answer and it is only consist of three words, security and comfort, what is yours? 

Adam sings it..

It is so easy to see

Dysfunction between you and me

We must free up these tired souls

Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know

I love you but I'm letting go

It may not last but I don't know

Just don't know

If you don't know

Then you can't care

And you show up

But you're not there

But I'm waiting

And you want to

Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away

The distance between us makes it so hard to stay

But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe

It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories

Can heal us temporarily

But misbehaving only makes

The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart

I’ll never let it fall apart

Strangely I wish secretly

It would fall down while I'm asleep

Though we have not hit the ground

It doesn't mean we're not still falling,

Oh I want so bad to pick you up

But you're still too reluctant to accept my help

What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame

But until then the fact remains

Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away

The distance between us makes it so hard to stay

Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe

It hurts but it may be the only way

#thought

“If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, 
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. 
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. 
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; 
you have a right to be here.”

― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

source : The creme de la crop

date with foods

Love Love Love, no other word that can describes how much I enjoy every food or beverage I had. Oh now I realized why... *staring at tummy* Let me share some of them, my favorites. Overall, I'm not a picky packy on foods, I just eat or drink as long as it is halal and I choose it by myself. One thing makes it taste more is when I can enjoy that moment with my close friends. Priceless moment!

 yes, it's Korean food and dish

try to be Japanese :p

Uber Alles! Sausage with seasoning vegetables, mashed potato and super yummy cheese!

while raining outside, enjoy the afternoon with this and tea. RIGHT!

yeay! for denim jacket

I've been craved for denim jacket since a long long time ago. I feel I must have one cause recently I don't know why, many people wear it. Was it sign, when I opened berrybenka.com I saw there are  two kind denim jacket color. Without hesitation I picked light blue denim jacket and checked it out. Finally I have one. Yes of course, I'm very much happy to have it. So that I share my happiness by these photo.

First, I paired it with a kind of boyfriend jeans and floweries top..

Still wore boyfriend jeans and I changed the veil with tribal print shawl 

Denim jacket with long skirt, why not?! still, wore my tribal print shawl

"Perbedaan antara waktu yang sudah lewat, 

sekarang dan masa yang akan datang hanyalah 

ilusi yang tak kunjung pudar."

Albert Einstein

XOXO

L

peplum..

this is tailored (almost) peplum top and batik skirt

girl on fire

I was tiding my closet up when I found this red dress. I remembered my dad brought this for me when he had chance to work in China a couple years ago. I don't have any chance to wear this cause it's tight. FYI, I was fat that time. Now? I lose lil weight. Actually, I'm happy cause finally I can lose it but then I realized that I hate the excuse of my losing which was broken h**rt and j*bless.. Ironically funny. After all those sadness, regrets, disappointment, I deciced to move on. Allah knows the best for me, what I need. I do want to be better person in the future, more grateful for everything I have, Inshaallah..  Anyway, this dress itself called cheongsams. It's tradional dress of Chinese women. I really love the colour, the pattern and the cut.

XOXO

the new me :D